Interesting Irony...

I was in the kitchen tonight making dinner and trying to figure out how to tell my roomate that I was planning on moving next month, and then my roomate said: "um I just wanted to let you know that I am looking to move at the end of april to live with my old roomate in SLC" I practically laughed at the irony of her making that statement then and said "interesting you bring it up cause as I was looking at the total for next months rent and I was going to tell you I have been looking at moving closer to work" The conversation wasn't really awkward, cause it seems that it is what both of us wants, but I couldn't help but be a bit irritated that she said it first?! It is pretty stupid I know... but I was like that was my idea and I planned on moving first!!! I guess I conveyed that when I told her that I planned on moving before the end of next month, but I still couldn't help but feel a bit cheated, and almost like why the hell would she have any reason to not want to live with me... after all it is her that makes life around the apartment awkward!? I know that I am seeing her "inside the box" (thank you work required reading) but I can't help but look for justifications to feel the way I do about the situation? All in all I should be glad that I was able to easily announce that I was moving without it being a big deal. Now it is just time to focus on finding a new place!!!

Are there rules for terms of endearment???

I have been corresponding with someone that I met online for the last couple weeks... I know haven't I learned my lesson about doing that already?! I suppose it has a bit to do with boredom?! Anyways as we were texting back and forth amid his attempts to get me to come over and "tuck him in" he was dropping a few terms of endearment. First I am not really a fan of the whole term of endearment thing...there is just something about being called sweetie pie, shmoopy etc. that is just NOT endearing to me at all! Maybe it is my own issue but it just feels a bit patronizing? Maybe it has something to do with whose mouth the term of endearment is coming from?? Another thing I don't understand is why people in a relationship enjoy talking to each other like they are five year olds with a speech impediment. I don't understand why people feel compelled to appear to have some kind of developmental disability to be cute... slurring words, lisping, and adding letters to words that they don't belong in... um not cute you just sound like an intoxicated five year old with a speech impediment who spells like they are dyslexic! K off the soap box for now...

(P)arallel (S)ynchronized (R)andomness...

I just finished a movie that really moved me. It is interesting how movies with no clear cut storyline of foundation climax and resolution can leave one with a sense of longing as if there is an internal drive for finality within left unpacified. I think that movies have been moving in the direction of predictabilty because that is what sells to the masses. Love movies have become boy meets girl, they fall in love, and they live happily ever after. Action movies are hero must face the villian, hero conquers villian, and then hero rides off into the sunset.... etc. Every once in a while there is a fresh idea that breaks the movie mold and awakens something that isn't soothed with predictibilty:

Interesting day of commercialized love...

The cookie pictures are compliments of my "brilliant" plan to make cookies for all my clients and co-workers. What I didn't anticipate was how LONG my little project would take me.... lets just say it was a multiple hour ordeal that went into the early AM on the day of love! It was a long day of work, but surprisingly enough an overall good pseudo holiday! I ended up having to stay at work till a bit after eight because I had to attend the first "community" substance abuse group that was coming out for our campus. Community appears in quotations because I work at a non-denominational christian based facility but the group was blatently denominational!
It was kind of akward because although I recognized that it was not how it was supposed to be I had to remain neutral so I didn't disrupt the group. It is an interesting balance when I think about it to remain religiously neutral in regards to dealing with clients...it seems fairly simple, but some people don't do so hot at it! Work in general was good today too. It is really great to sit with a client and to hear them process with such great insight. Watching them make connections and being into learning is nothing less than miraculous! I dealt clients that were on the opposite ends of the spectrum one talking about wanting to change and sharing an experience with getting over their resistance to prayer... and the other not wanting to work their program and telling staff that I can screw myself, kinda makes me laugh!

could it be a one man band touring across the nation???

I was logging onto Myspace today and a video caption caught my attention. I probably would have just passed it over except for the detail about the trolls being part of the band! I took the picture almost four years ago when I was down in Key West with my team over memorial day weekend. The video was taken in Bakersfield California and uploaded last month.... 2,949 miles away from the original sighting! I wonder how he traveled those miles? I can't be certain if they are the same man cause of the shadow from the sun set, but they sure look the same.... you decide!
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...the word of the week is SEX and it's many derivatives!

It is weird how themes arise at work sometimes with my clients. It may have something to do with them all living in the same setting, but sometimes the similarities are almost uncanny like they all get together and decide what to bring up?! So this week it seemed like everyone wanted to talk about sex...from feared std's, exploring whether they wanted to go back to being sexually active, a history of trading sex for drugs, or asking if there was a pill that could help them to not have intrusive thoughts about wanting sex all the time. I even had a client that decided to educate a younger peer by drawing them a picture of a penis! Yes it seemed as if there was sex in the air this week! Looking back on all the conversations I had I can't help but see the irony of it all...

I might be a terrible person?

I have been thinking about moving quite a bit in the last few weeks, and have started looking into different options. I got a message from my roommate yesterday saying that she will be out of town for a few days on business, and it was kind of sad that I got giddy knowing I would have my apartment to myself?! I have felt kind of like I have been on a covert operation making arrangements to move cause I haven't told my roommate yet :| ! I justify it a tad cause nothing has been finalized yet except my decision to move. I am actually really looking forward to getting my own place and making it my own... even if that means making a bit of my own debt in the process! I have been browsing around furniture stores and brainstorming decoration schemes and I am kind of excited about it!